I know I haven't written in a while, but life since my last post has gone from one adventure to the next! Something happened in the last month that could possibly change my life drastically, and quite quickly, if the Lord wills it. I applied for the Master's College at the beginning of June, intending on applying for the Spring 2012 semester. Barely five days after I sent in my application a counselor from the school called me, and asked me if I was really trying to apply for Spring (I had thought the Fall deadline for applications had already passed, so I didn't even think about Fall) because I could still apply for Fall. Now, when I got that phone call I felt like I was dreaming, though I'd sent in my application - with about 8 stamps on it, mind you - it still didn't really feel real. Then suddenly I had someone calling me to ask if I wanted to apply for Fall instead. I knew right away that, yes! Absolutely I wanted to apply for Fall.
You see, it's been my desire to go Master's for about two years now to be apart of their Home Economics program from women based off of Titus 2, though I didn't always make that known to friends or sometimes even let it be known to myself, it has always been my desire. Anyway, back to where I left off in the story, so I called and told them to put in my application for Fall. Then about a week later, God so graciously blessed me with an acceptance letter for Fall 2011! When I opened that letter I was sure it wasn't real. In fact after I opened it I read it really fast, then set it down and did the dishes. I was sure it wasn't real, it just couldn't be. After I finished the dishes I came back, looked at it again, and found that, yes it really was real. Praise the Lord!!!!
All this to say, that God is doing an incredible work!!!! I still don't know exactly how it's going to pan out, because I'm waiting on stuff for financial aid. However, through all this God has really been growing my trust in His sovereignty, and He has been working on the hearts of both of my parents. A year and a half ago, they told me that Master's was absolutely out of the question, but now they are actually excited about it. I have been praying for months for new opportunities to come up with my family, and God has most certainly answered that prayer. Praise be to Him! Let alone the fact that He knew this desire in my heart, even when I didn't want to trust Him with it, and when I let fear of man keep me from applying over a year ago. Needless to say, He is working! He's always working, but it's just awesome when you can see His work & faithfulness so clearly. It's such a blessing.
Now, your probably wondering how the picture of Rapunzel from Tangled fits into this story. Well a few months ago I had a rather silly conversation with one of my very dear friends, and the conversation consisted of us going around the table of our friends, and deciding which disney princess each friend most resembled. When it came around to me, she stated that I was Rapunzel. I laughed, and agreed with her. So right now, at this exact moment in time, I can't help but feel like Rapunzel in Tangled during the scene where she's just about to jump out of her tower! Pascal jumps right away, but Rapunzel hesitates. God has opened all the doors so far, and praise be to Him for that, I'm so thankful! I prayed for wisdom, direction, and clarity, and He has certainly been faithful to give it! But if I'm Rapunzel, I'm still waiting in my tower, I can't jump just yet.
I still have to wait. I have to wait and see how things pan out financially, and there's also the fact that maybe God has another plan, maybe I'm not supposed to jump out of my tower just yet. I certainly hope it will be soon, and that it is His will for me to go to Master's in the Fall, but moreover I want my will to be His will. I want God to use me in whatever way He pleases, and however this turns out I want my response to be praise to God who sent His Son to die a horrific death on a cross for my sins, because no matter what I will always be better than I deserve, infinitely blessed, & can take joy in knowing that the Lord reigns. May I not forget that! So, yes if I'm Rapunzel, until it is clear, until I've stuck my toes outside the tower to test the air, I won't yet jump out of my tower to explore the world below. In the meantime I'll continue to pray my heart out, and wait upon the Lord. If I may ask dear blogging friends if you will pray for me? I'd appreciate it so much, and most certainly need it. May God's will be done in all of this! Praise His goodness & faithfulness! I hope you all are feeling blessed to the brim, as my Titus 2 "mom" would say!
Joyfully,
Willa
I can't help but sing this song right now, "Take my life, and let it be"......
Take my life and let it be
Consecrated, Lord, to Thee.
Take my moments and my days,
Let them flow in endless praise.
Take my hands and let them move
At the impulse of Thy love.
Take my feet and let them be
Swift and beautiful for Thee.
Take my voice and let me sing,
Always, only for my King.
Take my lips and let them be
Filled with messages from Thee.
Take my silver and my gold,
Not a mite would I withhold.
Take my intellect and use
Every pow’r as Thou shalt choose.
Take my will and make it Thine,
It shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart, it is Thine own,
It shall be Thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord, I pour
At Thy feet its treasure store.
Take myself and I will be
Ever, only, all for Thee.
